Prayer ends with —
Assalaamu Alaikum Wa Rahmatullah —
to the left and right.
[May Peace and Mercy of Allah be upon you.]
My peace is found in prayer….
On June 26, 2017, I was sitting in my car waiting to check-in for my appointment.
Today, I will be receiving my first testosterone shot.
I recorded a video of what I sound like before I went in.
My doc was pretty dope, she may have been more excited than me.
We talk for a few, going over some of the things to keep an eye on for the first month.
The nurse comes in with the vial and some other medical supplies.
Another doc from my team is present and asks me if I wanted to record it.
I hand him my phone and he points it at me as the nurse administers the shot.
I was never fond of needles,
but this was different,
This was a moment.
I could not stop smiling.
Not even needles could wipe the grin from my face.
The medical staff congratulates me saying how proud and brave I was for starting this journey, especially while being active duty military and stationed overseas.
I get dressed and head out.
The other nurses speak when they see me leaving, always using my preferred name.
June 26, 2017. Prayer ends with Assalaamu Alaikum Wa Rahmatullah.
I am who Allah made me.
I never had issues passing.
Most people saw me and assumed what I already saw I was.
Things were only complicated at work…
I had some amazing military leaders in my corner.
They supported me every step of the way, making what they could easier for me.
It brought me peace of mind knowing that there are leaders who do care for the welfare of their soldiers.
[The military is all about looking out for those around you. Either you are good at that, or you are not.]
And on September 5, 2018, I knew I would become one of those leaders that cared about the welfare of their soldiers.
Prayer ends with Assalaamu Alaikum Wa Rahmatullah.
That day I graduated basic leaders course (BLC) on the commandants list, at the top of my class.
[The military requires various levels of schooling or training as you gain rank. More rank generally means more money, more responsibility, and more fault. It is a promotion.]
BLC was a humbling experience and a lesson in the way the army works.
I bunked with the females because I was still considered female on paper according to the military.
This did not stop my classmates or the cadre from treating me with respect.
After the graduation was over I was approached by the Command Sergeant Major of Regional Health Command Europe.
He coined me and congratulated me on my honorable mention and how this was the first stepping stone to becoming a great leader.
He never once misgendered me.
When I look at that coin today I know that my transbrothers and transsisters in the service are not alone.
November 6, 2018 in Ft. Sam Houston, San Antonio, Texas I had surgery!
I swear the night before was a strange and peaceful night of sleep.
It was like everything in me knew I was making one of the biggest changes to help me love me.
Assalaamu Alaikum Wa Rahmatullahaah.
I always find my peace in prayer.
And I am the man Allah made me.
Sergeant Aamir Ali.
To be continued.
Dedicated to the servicemen and women that treated aamir like a soldier first, then A human being second.
Written By Aamir Ali. Edited By Herstun.
So glad to have Aamir back on his new and regular night. #MCM, not a better place for him. It has been so interesting reading Aamir’s story from day one. I am going to take the notes section to lay it out in order.
Pre-verse — In the Beginning, I was a Girl
Verse 1 — In the Beginning, I Did Not Know feat. Julia S. Powell Art
Verse 2 — In the Beginning, I Did Not Know feat. Murjoni
Verse 3 — Culture Shock
Verse 4 — Finding my Peace — Currently Reading
So come hang out with my #MCM, follow him on SM and find out what it is like to defend America as a melanted transman.